Back to Terrible

Oh dear, dear. I'm back to terrible (as I assume you surmised from the title of this particular post). We added yet more to the combination, but she didn't take much time to go over the new moves. We had to split up into two groups to practice so she could see us better, which was MORTIFYING. But then when it was my turn to watch, I noticed that a lot of the other girls were having trouble, too. Not as much as I was, but still! So maybe she'll go over it a lot more next time. The Ballet II girls (oh yes, we're really two classes squished into one room) were wonderful and looked like real live ballerinas! That gives me a little bit of hope sort of. Oh well. I'll just blame it on the fact that I had a bad reaction to an antibiotic recently and I'm still not quite over it. Almost, but not quite. So that must be it!

Success!

Today, I was ten times better at ballet! I don't know why, but I like it. My toes don't hurt, I didn't get laughed at, and I wasn't any worse than anybody else! Also, it was fun. We learned more in our combination, including a couple of jumps. I panicked when the maintenance men came in to clean up a puddle on the floor and I had to move (turns out they'd been staring through the window at us for like five minutes-creepers) to the barres in the very center of the room (!!) where everyone can see me and the instructor is right there. It was okay, though. She was right behind me and didn't point out anything wrong, so that's nice! I maybe don't hate her as much. Maybe.

Ho Hum

I'm feeling a little un-motivated to go to class tomorrow, because my instructor won't be there. She'll be in California performing, and she's having grad students show a film. I don't want to watch it! I don't know what it is, but I don't. I guess I'll go though, because we have to take notes as a proof of our attendance, and I wouldn't put it past her to put questions from it on the exam. At least I get to wear regular clothes so I can run errands before class! I have some library books that are quite overdue. Maybe I'll work out before (hahahahahahahahaha) since I won't get my dance workout! We'll see...

Not So Bad

I missed (ahem, skipped) class on Monday, so today was extra-hard, but...I wasn't terrible! I certainly don't mean that I was good, but I wasn't any worse than the other girls on our pirouettes, and they've had a full day of practice more than I have, so that's nice.

Then we started a combination, which was glorious. We were all hopping around trying to be graceful, and failing miserably for the most part. But at least it was all of us, and not just me (well, except for the chain spins, that was terrifying for everyone in my path!)!!! Yaaaaay! But my feet hurt ever so much. Is this normal, or are my shoes too small? I don't know.

Blah Stupid Ballet

I hurt and I'm terrible at ballet.  We started pirouettes today and we were all wobbly at first.  Then everyone else got unwobbly and I didn't.  Our instructor laughed at us a whole lot and I hate her.  I don't really hate her, I just hate that she laughs at us.  And yells at us.  She yells.  I hate her.  I know I said I didn't, but that's just because she's nice when she isn't teaching us.  I hope I get better at this soon, or it's going to be an unpleasant semester.  

On the other hand, the other girls have started talking to me now, which is nice.  So there's that.  Blah stupid ballet.

:(

Well, after two classes of actual dance, I think it's safe to say:  I'm the worst.  It's not that I'm not good at ballet, I just learn the steps a little slower than all the other girls.  Yes, all of them.  It takes me approximately 1.5 runthroughs more than the others to get the steps, which is not good.  Next time, I'll move to the back of the class so I can trudge along with no shame!  

Today, my instructor kept cracking up after we finished and saying, "That's so bad!" and since I was the only one who was messing up, she had to mean me.  Somehow, I got stuck in the front when we were racing to positions in front of the mirrors.  Consequently, I was right next to her.  Anyway, I'll just go straight to the back next time so I can learn in peace.

On the other hand, it's pretty cool when I do finally learn it, I look like a balleriiiiina!